Raw No Sugar Sweet: Raw Brownie
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In this blog, i am looking at my 'desire' to eat 'tasty' food wherever i see one, in the kitchen, in restaurants, stores etc. - as the 'see food' character , not caring about the body, and through writing, self-forgiveness and commitment to correct myself moment by moment breath by breath in my living application, assist myself to establish a real relationship with the body , standing equal with the food, and assist myself to 'clear the communication lines' by releasing the 'thoughts, backchats, imaginations, reactions - both positive and negative, behaviors etc. and establish real communication with/as my body.
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Self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
fear not existing, fear suffering, fear pain, fear death etc.
and so in my desire to survive
as a 'happy' individual separate from all life
to cover-up my fears
to cover - up the doubt
to cover - up the uncertainty
i feel within that fear
i eat whatever i see that i like
using the mind to manipulate the body to justify my desire
to be 'happy'
and munch, munch, munch in 'happiness'
a 'positive energetic experience'
and munch, munch, munch in 'happiness'
a 'positive energetic experience'
that i use to
pretend
that i do not have any fear
that i do not have any fear
and be self-dishonest to myself about who i have become
as the 'see food' diet' character
as the 'see food' diet' character
believing i split myself into 2
one part of me
fearing not existing, fearing suffering, fearing pain, fearing death etc.
and one part of me
desiring to cover that up by feeling 'happy'
through eating 'tasty food'
as the 'when i see food i like, i eat it' character
where the evil me
where the evil me
is only
interested about
what i want or desire
or the 'happy' and 'content' feeling i have after i eat the food
the feeling of contentment and happiness
which i am addicted to
where at the back of my mind
i know i am not '100% me'
somehow knowing that i do not take full self-responsibility
to all parts of me as the whole - as all life
as i support the current system where nature, animals and plants
gets mined and slaughtered for food and profit
in a world of inequality
blaming the physical existence
within spite
and saying, 'i cannot do anything about this unequal economic system'
so believing i have to just let it be
deciding to'go with the flow'
like everyone around me
and 'not care' about all parts of me as all life
giving myself the excuse that
it is 'too difficult'
as the 'it's too difficult -justification' character
'i have to survive and be 'happy'
and justifying that
by desiring the 'positive energetic experience'
believing 'it gives me life'
hiding behind the 'desire to be whole'
NOT realizing i am not defined by energy
as 'positive and negative'
as for me to exist as energy
i have to get it from a source
'unaware' that the mind is resourcing the body
and transforming the nutrients i give it
to mind energy
to mind energy
for it to exist
for me to exist
as the evil me
within self-interest
'unaware' of what that 'happy' feeling
does to the body
does to the body
as the 'happiness' character
'not caring' about the body
and how the mind resource energy from the body
transforming nutrients to energy
the evil me 'addicted' to
that 'positive energy experience' i get
when eating 'tasty' food
as the ' i do not care about the body' character
where 'i do not care' to
bring the food within myself
where
'i do not'
stand equal to the food
where i do not look at how the body responds to it after i eat it
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Commitment to Correction
I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fearing not existing, fearing suffering, fearing pain, fearing death etc.
and covering up that fear
through eating whatever food that i see and like
I STOP
I BREATHE
I realise that
i am running away from my fears
and desring the 'positive energy experience'
'entertaining myself with food'
to be 'happy'
instead of facing my fears
so, instead of running away
and desiring 'tasty food' to make me 'happy'
doubting myself, spiting and blaming the physical existence
having excuses and justifications juts to be whole
as the evil me
within self-dishonesty, delusion and deceit
I face my fears
to through
to through
writing
self-forgiveness
and commitment to correct myself breath by breath
moment by moment
in my living application
assist myself to
take self-responsibility for all parts of me as - all life
and wake myself up
and see the consequential outflow
of this in my 'without' as this current world system
to birth myself here as life
and to instead of
eating everything i see that i like
and not caring about the body being resourced for energy
i clap once
i say, 'stop'
breathing through the 'desire'
let it flow through me
to the earth
and stabilize me as breath
direct me
to bring the food within myself
standing equal with the food
realizing that my body
is equal to the body of nature
is equal to the body of animals
is equal to the body of plants
as we are made of the same susbstance all are made of
looking at how the body responds to the food
to instead of eating
without me being aware of me
and the real relationship
that exist between me and/as all life
eat in awareness of me
and the real physical relationship that exist
between me and/as all life
seeing the common sense
that my body
is equal to the body of nature
is equal to the body of animals
is equal to the body of plants etc.
and eat that which supports the body
assisting myself
to accept and allow myself
to establish a real relationship with the body
to accept and allow myself to
establish a real communication with the body
to birth me here as all life
so life will be here forevermore
assisting in establishing and birthing
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